Hard times, people. I feel my patience unraveling. I don't want it to. I totally know it's better to be calm and yet, here I am...Ruby slapping Dellah, Dellah biting her fingernails only to taste the 'no bite' stuff I put on them and be sent over the edge into screaming fits. Ruby's in time out actually kicking my bathroom door and Dellah is spitting on my carpet. Ruby can now come out of time out but she'd rather scream and tell me that now, NO, she doesn't want to leave time out. Only because now I want her too. Language fails them both...they'd rather scream. I'd rather run away. Far.....away. But then I go to jail for abandonment and I really like these people...just not right now. So I put this picture on my blog to remind me that they are not shape shifting monsters posing in human form...they are supposed to be these angel creatures with no guile and no accountability. Lucky them. I'm totally responsible for my feelings of retreat and my salivating wish that I was anywhere else. what are you gonna do, you know?
cheerio.
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sometimes i'd like to be anywhere else too...it's okay. as long as you don't actually go...does the "no bite" stuff work then? or does she always just spit everywhere? ethan does that same thing ruby does all the time, no i want to stay in time out now that i can out...no i want to be a screaming red-faced crazy "child"....but this too shall pass right? and he just peed in his pull-up again...this is our life, and frankly, i love it!:)
Erin, you are such a good writer and can I have Ruby's hair PLEASE!! I remember when you use to cut mind and new exactly what I wanted.
. . .I love (with sarcasm that usually turns to humor with time) looking back on those moment when I was starting to go nuts from fits and crying. . .and when in public feeling like a totally insufficient mother. I still have those moments. Sometimes I think Soren has times where he just needs to cry and throw a fit to let it all out. I think he gets that from me--Jason is the mellow half.
um..Cammie...if there is someone more mellow than you I would love to meet them. It's so funny how you just can't control their actions. I'm learning to just let it go but it's hard. ps, do you ever watch the Disney Cartoon Charlie and Lola that is the cutest little British arty cartoon?
Lola has an imaginary friend called Soren Lawrenson that she talks to all the time. I always think of your Soren.
you know, i would like to know if that "no bite" stuff works for you, too? lucy is almost five, sucks her thumb ALL DAY LONG. i have tried that "no bite" nail polish on her, but she just sucks it off and says, "i'll stop sucking my thumb tomorrow, mom." but, she says that every day.
sometimes, i just have to tell me kids that "mommy needs a time out"-- a time out with a good trash magazine and some cadbury mini eggs.
becca, Dellah likes things just so, so any foreign taste sends her over the edge. So far so good. I sucked my thumb until I was a beehive...that one's harder than fingernails..every time I put myself in time out they totally go ballistic like worse than when THEY go to time out themselves banging on my time out door and crying. no rest for the weary.
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